"Reloaded"

Naturally Beautiful Actress Eva Mendes

The Numbers:
Height: 5' 7"
Birthdate: March 5, 1978

By the way...That picture is huge...Beware...

So, here I am, two week since my last post...Alas, I have pictures this time...So, rest easy, and read a bit...

So, the name of this post is "Reloaded," and I'd really be lying to you if I told you that it wasn't Matrix based...Love the movie, it's my favorite of the three...Coincidentally, some people feel it is the worst, didn't live up to the first one, etc...Whatever, those people missed the point...There were some very good elements presented to you in the 2nd Matix, that you may hav missed...And like all good things, I have found a way to relay them to my own life and experience...Peep Game...

In the first movie...Neo is just this regular hacker dude...Living life...But LOOKING for something...Aren't we all..? Eventually, he finds a really good lead to what he has been searching, and it turns out, his whole life is a lie...And somewhere inbetween fighting for his place, trying to push aside conventional thinking, he finds out that what it takes to be The One, is walking the path of The One...

"Apropos," you don't get where you are without first getting there...The things we go through in life, no matter how tough or trivial, are the very things we need to get where we are going...

So, by the end of the movie, our reluctant hero has taken into the belief...Not of programs, Agents, or Morpheus' ugly ass green tie, but HIMSELF...All you EVER need to believe in, is in yourself...I mean, what else is there..? His entire journey was one of purpose, cause it only dealt with him...It dealt with him being the very best person he could be...And by doing so, he was helping all of the world...By the end of the first movie, we catch a glimpse of the second...

He comes back RELOADED...

Now, all the things he learns in the first movie, the fighting styles, the ins and out of his new life, and they are reapplied...He has taken what he learned in the first film about himself, and taken it to a new level...In his world, you can miss him with that bullshit...You want to try and take a shortcut..? Gonna just shoot me huh..?



Riiiiight...Please, refrain from shortcuts, and give it to me like I'm about to give it to you...And that he did...He reloaded, but this time, he didn't need an armory Dubs could be proud of...He was mentally and physically consolidated on all levels, at that point in his life where he has the power to understand his purpose...It takes much more heart, and an even bigger will, to believe in you...

In thought, it's pretty hard, isn't it..? So many things loom...Failure...Personal Loss...All huge things against you...It is much easier for me to say, "Nobody reads this blogger," and not to worry about it, than it is to sit here and write my thoughts...Think of all the things we don't do, not because we can't, but because we simply find ways to not do it...More often than not, we are our own worst enemy...And like Agent Smith, the negatives always out number the positives...But they cannot overwhelm them...

I have grown from a boy to a man...And while that doesn't mean that I am complete (I still have my revolution) my powers are getting where I want them to be...I know what I knew yesterday, but now I know something else as well...And an extended thought process means that I am humble...But very ready...So being Reloaded means I am no longer confined to the space that I feel confines so many others...

And that once confined me...


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Safe and Sound

Naturally Beautiful Actress Morena Baccarin

The Numbers:
Birthday: 1979
Birthplace: Rio de Janeiro, Brazil

I know what you're thinking...I'm psychic...

"AYHJA..! What the hell is wrong with you and all this writing..?!? Where are the pics and the vids..?

Sorry..! I'll get them up soon...In fact, when I can find some more HQ shots of Morena here, I will edit this post...But, then again, the requests and comments have been slack lately, so...Don't complain... :D

At any rate, today is my birthday...And while I usually have something to talk about when I sit and post in my Blog, today...My mind is really quiet...I'm not too sure why that is, usually, things are going 100 MPH's and I have TOO much stuff to talk about...What is the likelyhood of me all of a sudden calming down in a day..? Like, what are the odds of me getting peace of mind on my birthday of all days..?

Maybe peace of mind isn't the right way to think about it...I have always had a really good ability to focus and meditate...But such was a conscious decision...Today, this is how I started the day...With a clean slate...I wasn't overly emotional in any one direction...Not physically affected in any direction...

On today, I am the number 0...

And it is an odd feeling, but one that I think...No...That I am sure I can get used to...Of course, tomorrow will tell a different story...Tomorrow, I may be back to normal...Same old AYHJA...Technology, Work, Family, and Babes on the brain...But I guess on today, I have given myself a wonderful present, even if I didn't do it purposely...Birthdays have special meanings to some, and to others, they are just another day...Thankfully, I may not have gotten what I wanted, but I reckon I got what I needed...





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The Love You Save

The Resplendent Nadia Bjorlin

The Numbers:
Birthday: August Second
Birthplace: Rhode Island
Site: Bjorlin.net

I am all about being honest, let me tell you...

I have promised myself to be honest this year, even it if meant someone got hurt...Even if...It was a lie I could tell and get away with it...And somehow, it has gotten me here...Let me explain...

Throughout time, you come into contact with hundreds of thousands of people man...It is amazing to think about actually, in some way or another your decisions, even the small ones, affect the lives of others...All too often though, we realize this when it is too late...Life is much, much too short...It's all about handling things in the moment...

But, this wouldn't be my blogger, if this story didn't somehow have something to do with a woman, I mean, lets keep it real...I hate to draw the comparision, but having a crush on someone is a special kind of thing...And when you look at it, it is a kind of love...One that is extremely unique...

What..?

See, what I mean is that often we have these grand ideas about what it must be like to be in the arms of someone whom we adore...It could be you and them never got to go out, or they had someone, or you had someone...But you could see their smile, and hear them laugh...And everything would be alright...That was enough...Seeing them walk, or hearing them sing a song...You adored them, and you loved them, just for what you saw...But whatever the reason, you never acted on it...

And so, 10 years have passed, and that feeling is still there...A brief bit of communication, and so it returns...That pure, unconditional feeling that doesn't change, and doesn't require the other person do anything special or extraordinary to sustain it...A simple conversation...

That love lives in your mind through the amazing things that put it there, and in that respect, not much can compare...But the trick to it, is not to act on it...The challenge, is to keep it, and hold on to that...Not to try and build on it, potentially ruin it...As long as you hold it inside of you, it isn't cheating...In my mind, I can live a reality in which all the things I think and feel for that person, express themsleves in ways as innocent as saying hello...

So, here is to being honest, and telling someone how you feel...



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